8 things about me..


Thanks Momofrs for passing me this award.  so here are 8 things which you didnt know about me.

1. I am a Sagittarian.. true to its nature, can fall in love instantly, hate people.  have multiple crushes, and still move on. of course be loyal to the one I love.

2. when I cook anything for first time, it comes out really well. when my MIL asks me to make it again, I flop it.. dont know why.. either I am extra cautious or careless..

3.I like to keep things organized. I plan a lot. but end of the month, I am all disorganized and redo everything again. whenever I plan, it doesn’t happen.

4. write now, I am desperately trying for a job in Chennai or b’lore. yes, want to stay with hubby and stay as a family together.

5. I still have a confusion on having a second child. whenever I read about fellow blogger writing about sibling flight or talks, I am tempted to have one. when I think of career break and who will take care of baby, I am confused and dont want one.

6.If I hate a person, I keep constantly scolding them to others or in my mind. I keep coursing them too. right now it’s my boss who is the target.

7.I love to sketch, paint and dance. unfortunately not them now. started learning music and Venna. let’s see how long I continue.

8. I have cavities. reason, when I was 9 years or so, I skipped brushing my teeth for a year. My mom had gone to native place for delivering second baby. I was alone with dad. so, I just skipped it. things like this can always happen ok. now I ensure that my little one brushes her teeth.

now whom do i nominate.. I think all the bloggers I know have recieved this award long back and written it also. Tharani, yes next post is for u dear..

confusion master title goes to…………. ME.

Note: its random thought.. a stupid way my brain thinks. even if you understand 10% of it, u r great.. 

why do i get so confused these days.. sometimes I feel that I plan too much.. and when things dont go according to the plan, i get upset. 

so let me explain my confused state now.. I am waiting for the results of the exam i wrote last week. mean time, I keep thinking what if i get? what if I dont get it?


If i get through first level, Then there will be interview. I will need an NOC. taking an NOC means, my promotion will be delayed by another year ( if i dont pass in the interview). If I get the job, then will my husband also move to same city? will Bunty adjust to new cosmopolitan city? will my salary be sufficient?? 


If i dont pass the level 1. that means, i will be buying a new car. will be staying in same city as now. everything will be same, including the fact that i will be staying away from hubby. 

all of a sudden I want to quit this job and live with hubby. again, that means more problem.stay at home. staying in joint family. one salary. 

next idea is to do masters. again i am not sure if i have to do M.Arch or M.Des.  M.Arch will fetch me a teaching job. M.des can take me into new field. buy not sure of job opportunities.. if i leave my present job, what about my loans?? 

with so many thoughts, i am not getting sleep also.. finally I understood one thing, that  I am desperate to get out of this organization. reason is silly. yes, because i am not being sent for promotion this year.. I dont know, after working, if i dont get what i expected, I feel bad. but, after working in Govt organization, reputed one, I am scared to go out work in private firms for less salary. I took a solid paid leave for an year, have all facilities, Medical, LTC and what not?? but there is no work satisfaction. .. actually I like the work also, but i dont like my Boss’s boss. 

Should i just leave an organization for just one person who is going to retire in another 2 years?? or should i just go back because once in while Bunty asks for her dad. Am i being self centered as i am just thinking of myself?? or am i taking the fact for granted that BUnty has got adjusted here. she is used to staying away from her dad??

somebody please switch off my brain till the results of the exam come out…   

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so, what am i doing these days??

I am busy preparing myself to get out of the office i am currently working. Reasons are many. So, i am busy preparing for public sector entrance exams. have entrance test on Wednesday. Dont ask me what i am doing here instead of studying?? .. i am taking a break..

let me tell you how to prepare for exams while working..

1. make a schedule. what to study and what to be delivered in office.

2. come early to office and prepare for exam when nobody is around. yes, you need to utilize the internet and printer given in office. i am not doing any cheating here ok.. my ink is getting dried up. i have use my new cartridge given before the year ends.

3. so, when boss comes, it would look like you are really working hard, but you would doing double duty.

4. once in a while ask doubts to boss. or else he might doubt that you are doing something else. even though you have finished your work, dont show it to him. he might load you with new job.

5. most important . don’t tell anyone in office about the exam. they may casually leak the news to boss. yes stupid ppl can grade us low, saying that you tried to apply for a job elsewhere.

6. if you have to take leave and study for exam, dont do it just before exam. people should not get any hint. so do it a week before. before taking leave, casually tell people around you that you are having headache and feeling feverish. If you are a female, more advantage. ( yes, you need to use the fact that most of the Indian Men cant openly talk about menstruation). so, you just have to tell you have stomach ache. so, no further questions are asked.

7. after you come back, try to look dull. you are in recovering phase right. dont put make up. no earrings and bindi. it makes wonders.

8. In between take break by participating in various blog contest and read blogs. :D( addiction I say).

9.Prepare well, right the exam well.

now, all of you wish me good luck. I am desperate to get out of this office.

note: its really difficult to study again after 5 years of finishing college. especially with Diwali , little bunty at home, and hubby come over to stay with us for the festival.

Tips for your Smart Suraksha

10. It is not always necessary to spend money and buy pepper spray. what you need to do is just carry a packet of chilli powder in external zip of your bag. grab it and throw on the face of person attacking you. note: if the attacking person is alone. sometimes, even a deo which you carry can also come to help. but you need to be sure that you spray on the eyes of the threatening person

9. It is related to point 10. u need to act as though you are falling down, pick up the sand and throw on the face of the culprit and run as fast as possible.

8.incase you know that the person is there to attack only for the money or gold you have, take them out, instead of handing it to the thief, throw it away, and run in opposite direct. the thief would get confused either to grab you or gold.

7.learn some self defense moves. if I am right, they used show it in SUN TV in morning after the news. few moves which can always help you when you are attacked. hitting the private part of the person threatening is best when you need to save your life.

 6.when walking alone on road, talking on phone to someone you trust and telling them where you are, and talk till you reach the destination. or sometimes pretending to be talking on phone also helps.

5.when taking a cab from bus or railway stations, always go with the registered prepaid once, though you may have spend time in queue . they will always posses your details and drivers details.  

4.always better to use public transport when it is available. it’s not that people are going to come and save you. it’s just that the abuser might not dare to attack you in crowd.

3. when you see that you are walking alone on roads, when you see someone coming on bike and you think he/she is going to attack you. walk zig zag or walk under the light or get into to nearest apartment gate where you see the security. and then leave to your place after the bike person leaves.

2. when you see that someone is following you, get into different places. so that person doesn’t come to know the exact place of your residence.

1. best is to download the smart suraksha app. try it out once before the actual situation occurs and use if safely and roam around the world safely.